Peace and blessings...peace.and.blessings.

This past week was filled with peace and blessings indeed.  I will highlight one specific example.  On Saturday, Justin and I took our engagement pictures.  It was fun, but I'd say I'm definitely more comfortable behind the camera than in front of it.  I am way too critical of every little thing about myself in pictures.  It's a problem, really.  Anyways, when we were out and about, I received a phone call from the principal of the school in Gonzales that I applied to.  She wanted me to come in for an interview on Thursday at 1:30.  So if you think about it, please be praying for me!  I did a little happy dance, and then proceeded with the photo shoot.  So that was the blessing.  Here's where I had to find the peace.  I, like everybody else in the world, have insecurities.  The main one I struggle with is inadequacy.  This feeling of never being good enough has caused me to doubt my God-given talents and abilities in many situations.  So in this situation specifically, I struggle with believing that I even have a shot at this job.  I have a health degree for crying out loud.  My teaching experience is with 3-year-olds and teenagers.  On one end of that spectrum I'm dealing with potty accidents and coloring on other little friends with markers.  On the other end I'm dealing with giving dating advice.  I'll let you use your best judgment to figure out which one is which.  Point being, my silly fears get in the way of me truly believing that God is capable of enabling me to do what He has called me to do.  It breaks my heart to be so fearful sometimes.  This morning as I was once again struggling with this issue, I came across my notes on a podcast I listened to a few months ago.  One quote I wrote down totally put it into perspective.  "The man who fears is the man who has forgotten that God is in control."  Boom.  That was me.  I wonder how long it will take me to finally stop putting so much pressure on myself to feel like I have to fix a situation.  In all reality, if God wills me to work in Gonzales, then that's where I'll be.  It is ridiculous for me to be stressing about an interview that in the grand scheme of things is so insignificant.  God knows if I will get this job or not.  It's completely in His hands.  Then came the peace.  Regardless of whether I get this job or not, there is no failure.  I either get the job, or the blessing of experience for the next opportunity. 

On that note, I will let you know how it goes!
Peace and blessings!